Haven't wrote in awhile, and don't have much time to do it tonight but knew I needed to take a break from a screaming baby (teething? sick? who knows. No fever and I don't see any tooth buds yet). So, this post is going to be a list of things to look forward to after you have a child...
1. Waking up at 3am because your child feels it's been an appropriate amount of time to sleep. Jennie had me up at 3:15 this morning, and decided she just wanted to hang out with me. So, we hung out...until 4:30am when she finally fell back asleep and I had about an hour to nap before it was time to get up and get ready. Exhausted doesn't even begin to cover it.
2. Walking around the house, bouncing your child in your arms, singing and "sh-shsing" your nearly naked child, all at the same time. Jennie had a meltdown tonight- like she went from happy and cooing at Jake to red face, tears streaming down, crying so hard she wasn't making noise anymore in about five minutes. And when she does that the only way to calm her down is to take all her clothes off and let her wiggle for a few minutes while naked. Wiggling didn't even work this time, so I scooped up her nekkid-butt, turned on the radio in the kitchen and walked around the house while bouncing her and singing.
3. Shame goes out the window- read #2. You would think holding a naked baby, bouncing her and singing would make me worry about the neighbors looking in and seeing what was going on, or Jake would think I'm a nut job for singing to her, but I didn't care. All that matters is changing those tears to smiles (or at least make her be quiet...just please stop crying!) and if it means I have to stand on my head while singing and doing the hokey pokey, I'm gonna do it. All that singing and bouncing did quiet her cries, thank god...one of the worst feelings in the world is knowing there's something wrong with your child, but he/she can't tell you what it is yet.
Not to say there aren't positive things to look forward to, but for right now I had to share what I have been through already tonight. Jennie is napping now, and I know that when she wakes up she will probably be all smiles and it will make me forget all the frustration and stress from tonight. Kids do that to you :)